The call of samuel

When I was young, (I can't remember the age), I remember the Lord spoke to me audibly. It's the only time in my life that I have heard the Lord audibly, but it was so clear and so certain. I was playing upstairs in my bedroom and suddenly I remember hearing my name.

"Joshua"

I ran downstairs to my mom and asked if she called me. She said no, so I went back upstairs. I kept playing and I heard the Voice again,

"Joshua"

This time I thought, "oh this is like samuel" so I kneeled on my bed and prayed, "Speak now for your servant heareth"

Silence.

Deathly silence.

Had I done something wrong? Did I not get it right? Did I not hear it? I didn't think anything too much about it and ended up going back to playing, but over the years I wondered. I wondered what it meant and what it means. To this day I don't know.

But today someone said that I had the call of samuel. Immediately I remembered this incident. but yet He had only called me twice, not thrice like God did in the Bible to Samuel. He only called twice. The third time God called to Samuel, that was the beginning of the ministry where the Lord's voice wasn't prevalent and that that through Samuel He was going to speak once again. So what is going to happen if/when the Lord calls me a third time? I'm fearful and hopeful when that time comes, because it has been at least 25 years since he's called twice. Has He been refining me for the time He will call my name a third time? And why wait this long to call me thrice? I don't know and that has me scared. But I long to hear His Voice.

4 Then the Lord called Samuel, and he said, “Here I am!” 5 and ran to Eli and said, “Here I am, for you called me.” But he said, “I did not call; lie down again.” So he went and lay down.
6 And the Lord called again, “Samuel!” and Samuel arose and went to Eli and said, “Here I am, for you called me.” But he said, “I did not call, my son; lie down again.” 7 Now Samuel did not yet know the Lord, and the word of the Lord had not yet been revealed to him.
8 And the Lord called Samuel again the third time. And he arose and went to Eli and said, “Here I am, for you called me.” Then Eli perceived that the Lord was calling the young man. 9 Therefore Eli said to Samuel, “Go, lie down, and if he calls you, you shall say, ‘Speak, Lord, for your servant hears.’ ” So Samuel went and lay down in his place.
10 And the Lord came and stood, calling as at other times, “Samuel! Samuel!” And Samuel said, “Speak, for your servant hears.” 11 Then the Lord said to Samuel, “Behold, I am about to do a thing in Israel ​at which the two ears of everyone who hears it will tingle. 12 On that day I will fulfill against Eli all that I have spoken concerning his house, from beginning to end. 13 And I declare to him that I am about to punish his house forever, for the iniquity that he knew, m​because his sons were blaspheming God, ​and he did not restrain them. 14 Therefore I swear to the house of Eli ​that the iniquity of Eli’s house shall not be atoned for by sacrifice or offering forever.”