Expectations

I have incredible expectations for relationships and friendships, even in the beginning when they are not warranted. This usually causes me to be disappointed with my interaction with them, thinking that this isn't working out, that it isn't what it should be. And I'm right. It isn't what it should be. But then again, nothing is in the beginning. By expecting a intimate and completely honest and comfortable friendship/relationship in the beginning is completely unrealistic and causes so much undue pressure on myself and to some extent, those whom I am relating to.

So I need to accept the fact that friendships and relationships are hard, and that they aren't going to be amazing and that they take work. I hate that fact, as in my mind, things should be effortless, but in a fallen world this is how it is. I can't have the same kind of fellowship that I have with Christ in my brothers and sisters because we are in the fallen world and it's not going to be easy and effortless.