Mementos

It was Krystl's Birthday today. She definately looked like the movie star, very stylish. It was nice because it was a suprise, and we ended up playing volleyball, threw around a football and came back to my house to hang. I have to say that my place is CLEAN. I don't think it's been this clean in a long long long time. It's kind of nice, but I know that it will soon pass and it'll be crappy again.

Tomorrow I do some more organizing and throwing out crap all over the place. It's gonna be great, cause I'm gonna be getting a new closet with the 2nd closet that I have. In either case, it's gonne be good. I have so much crap that I've accumulated over the years that I need to throw out, but I just can't bear throwing it out, because they are mementos that remind me of a good time.

It makes me wonder whether or not those people who have a lot of mementos don't have a good life currently, or that they believe that their life is getting worse and worse. Hence they want to keep as many mementos of things in the past when things were better. Do I feel this way? I think so. I look back at my childhood and think that was the best, and that adulthood sucks. Sure I can find fun, but it's not the same anymore. A friend of mine Jameel said something that I thought was very true. He said, "Man, when I didn't have a job and I was just going to school, that we did so many more crazy things than now when we do have jobs and actually have money." I wonder why that is? Is it because without money, you have to be a little creative with what you want to do? With money, you just buy whatever entertainment that you want, cause people will package it up for you. If you don't have money, you have to create your own entertainment and be creative about it.

So point being? when I didn't have money, I had a lot more fun because we did stuff that was an extension of our creativity. Now that I have plenty of money, my personal entertainment creativity (if that is a word) is dead because I pay people to be creative for me and entertain me. Hence the picking up of mementos, mementos of a time where I didn't have money and had a ton of fun going places and doing fun things.