talk

I know I've written this in the past, but yesterday at the cubs game with my bro (we lost, we really really suck) we didn't even talk that much. I feel like there is this chasm to cross, and while there are so many things in my life that I would love to share, I feel like they are more intimiate things and not appropriate to talk about at a cubs game, or the L-train. Then it made me think...I don't know how to talk to my own family about the day-to-day stuff that has been going on in my life, to give them a window into what I do. And that makes me sad. it seems that I have friends who I talk about specific things to. Ones that I talk about spiritual things to, ones that I talk about sports, others about movies, and then others about relationships. But yet my family should be more than that. They should be the ones who hear everything, because they are the ones who I should be closest to. But they aren't. of course, no one in my life I'm really really close to, that I feel I can comfortably talk about everything with. dunno why that is.