Small Group

Man, I don't know what it is, but the small group I was in was tough...it was lacking in a certain type of...connection? It seemed like there needs to be a person there who is the "glue" and there isn't anyone there who is like that. Everyone pretty much does their own thing and doesn't quite get involved with everyone else. It was a somewhat frustrating thing for me, since I came from a group where everyone was connecting and was really tight. Maybe it was because I wasn't commited to making the community happen, because in this case it would have taken a good bit of work. But given that I was leaving in a little while, I didn't want to pour myself into it because I was afraid that I wouldn't be poured back into. Is that wrong? Shouldn't I be awaiting the Lord to pour back into me, rather than waiting for the object of my outpouring of effort to reciprocate? I'd like to say yes, but in reality, no. I need that reciprocation, I need to know that it isn't just me who wants this community, that wants to delve into each other's lives and pour into each other's lives and make it a priority. Most of the time? I'm the only one, and everyone is satisfied with their form of community and so I feel like I'm running ahead of everyone else and thinking that maybe these people aren't ready for community. Or just sitting around waiting to get married so that they can have community that way.

Why is it? I tend to think that there is always something that can be done to create community, or create the tightness. I refuse to accept that if you put a group of people together that they cannot join together as a community. Maybe some take more work than others. Some take no work at all. But irregardless, just the fact that we are all getting together to study the Word and know Him more should be a good start.