Fasting

I think I'm going to fast today and tomorrow for the retreat. Last night was a real struggle, as I totally bombed my exam. I didn't know anything in the first 2 pages, and the rest of the pages I filled with junk. *sigh* It's probably been the first time I have failed an exam in a decade. ugh.

On another note, I don't know why, but I was reading Grudem, and there was a paragraph mentioning when Jesus said, "It is finished!" (John 19:30). It struck a chord in me that I haven't been able to shake.

For the last couple of weeks we all have been planning the YAM fall retreat, working out the logistics and making sure details are taken care of. But in all of this, I feel like we were missing the whole point, which is GOD. When have we started to bring this all to the Lord? Did we ever first come before the Lord and seek after Him on what He wants us to do? No! That is a failure of the leadership, which is a failure on me to lead these people first into prayer and secondly into the work. Maybe that is what is bothering me. I'm in this minitry, but there just doesn't seem to be a lot of impetus to pray corporately for the retreat. I need strength to see this through.

So what does this all mean? It means I want to seek the Lord, not women on this retreat, that we would encounter the Lord in this rather than looking at this place as a time to meet with other people and find friends.

1. That God would be sought after
2. That there would be no distractions to those who come
3. The safety of those who come
4. That God would prepare our hearts to be honest, forthright, and vulnerable this weekend
5. That Jeff would be strengthened in this time of need as he is probably very busy on this.
6. That Josh Caterer would be led in worship to seek the throneroom of the King
7. That we ourselves would be undivided