Endearment

I've been thinking about endearment. This past weekend, I ran into K and had what I would consider a good talk with her. The thing about talking with ex-gfs is that they know when something is up cause you had been together for a while. It was a particular powerful sermon from my pastor and it had me in deep processing mode, which she picked up on. I hesitated, because I didn't want to continue to tie my heart to her by sharing what was so dear to me, but she was persistent and I can't resist blondes. grrr.

She was telling me about her upcoming missions trip and how there were so many people who were willing to help her out and provide her with things that she needed, etc, etc. What I was struck by was the endearment that K produces in those around her. It's a gift that she has to be able to endear herself to you and you just can't help but want to do things for her. I'm so jealous of that. At my best I am never able to produce a sense of endearment in others. Except for family, but that doesn't count. :) Not that endearment is something that is the dream of every male..."he really endears himself to me." is not the reason men get up in the morning. I wonder what it is. Maybe it's because I'm so self sufficient, but K is pretty self sufficient.