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And I wept. I found it and downloaded it and watched it 6 times alone yesterday. and wept every single time.
God was completely working in my life this past weekend. I served in Chinatown all day and was challenged to learn mandarin to reach out to those who I believe God has called me to reach out to. And one of the people who I was serving with as we were saying our farewells said,
"I will pray that you quit your job"
And that just cut me like a razor, because she vocalized what my heart had been telling me for the last couple of years. That moving up the corporate ladder, of which I have the skill and talent, is not what my heart wants. But my mind, body and everything else says that I need to climb the corporate ladder to build out the house, get a nicer car, to go on nicer vacations, to eat out at different restaurants, etc, etc. So within my being I have 2 warring factions and the tide is turning toward the heart and hearing it out.
So with that, I've been thinking about what it would take to transition into full time student work, or getting rid of the house and stuff so that I would be "ready to do a good work" as it says in timothy. Is this wise? in the world's eyes, no. It's a bad housing market, and I would take a hit on the house. Am I doing this out of an emotional motive and that I need to think things through before rashly doing something? Yes, I do. I know I am a rash guy at times and this is one of those times.
But I praise God more and more for how he is leading me and wrestling with me and changing my heart more and more to continue in doing the work He has laid out before me. So in light of that, I need to get back to work, lunchtime is over. :)
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