Bumbling Leadership

Here I am working with the production team, and I feel like I don't know how to lead. I see true leaders and how they lead, how they instinctively know how to focus a group together, to get them on the same page, and marching in the same direction. I don't have that. Today is a good example. I had an issue with the way that the retreat was being planned, in particular with the friday night get to know you session. So I talked to the coordinator in charge of this, and mentioned my uneasyness with this. The problem was that she was going into a class in 10 min and as you may have guessed, our conversation got cut short. So now she's thinking about what I have said, but didn't get a chance to complete, and I know that when she gets done, that it's going to be a difficult call to see if I can get her to move the event to some other day in the retreat. A real leader wouldn't have started the conversation knowing that this is more than a 10 min conversation and asked her to give him a call back. But me? no, I just got to get the thing done now. It can't wait, and it can no longer be delayed.

So what do I learn from this? Patience. Things rarely need to be taken care of right this instant, no matter what the situation, yet I live my life like that, and find that what I thought needed to be taken care of now didn't have to be taken care of now, it could have waited for a day or two.

Lord, teach me patience, to not require everything now, to not require immediate action and more importantly, allow for "open loops", by putting them in your hands.