SG

SG was great yesterday, and I really enjoyed the time we had there. One of the things that I have noticed about me is that I have become quieter when it comes to discussion time. One of the reasons is that I am not as prepared as I would like to be, but the other is the pressure I talk, simply because I am part of the leadership. While that may be somewhat false, there is a guy in my small group who after he talks about what he feels a passage is, tries to gain acknowledgement from our resident seminary that he was right. I find this disturbing, that Zack tries to find validation in another human being's opinion. I want to yell at zack and say, "stand on your own 2 feet man! Don't be looking to others to tell you that you have the right opinion!" But how much do I do the same thing, trying to determine what is "best" what is "right" and seeking out those whom I respect for validation that I am doing the right thing.

Like the answer dan my cousin said, "does it matter if you find out why you are going through this trial? you're in the trial now, and getting the answer is not going to help you get out of this trial.". So much of my time is spent trying to find the answer that I miss what God is trying to tell me at this very moment through the trial. Who are we to determine why God is doing this to us. God IS allowing this to happen. Seek God in these trials, not to seek after my own strength.